*miCheL~

2009-07-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT TOOTY JUST BECAUSE I WEAR SPECS! :(((

2009-07-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18TH AMANDA AW XIU HUI!

LETS MEET UP SOON WITH ALL THE FAV GIRLS OKAY! :) LOVE YOU!

I couldn't find my lenses :(

And cousin's birthday is tomorrow! Time seriously flies :(

2009-07-16T16:36:00.001+08:00

WARDROBE GOH
DRAWER LIM
CUPBOARD ANG

2009-07-16T16:21:00.003+08:00

JESSICA AND GLADYS KEEP SPITTING SALIVA ON ME!

I'M DROWNING IN THEIR SALIVA!!!

2009-07-16T15:54:00.022+08:00

SUDDENLY I CANNOT HEAR YOU AND WE MUST TALK LOUDLY!

HELLO

BORING

SIAN

FINE LOR

I SHALL NOT TYPE IN !!!!!

SINCE THEY SAY I !!! VERY FIERCE

CURRENT LOCATION:::::

OUTSIDE ENGINE HALL1

IRRITATED BY TWO PEOPLE BESIDE ME.

THEY ARE BADDIES BECAUSE THEY DON'T LET ME TYPE IN!!!!

I WANT TO TYPE WITH !!!!!!

2009-07-15T00:28:00.003+08:00

I have decided to delete this blog away after reading the archives for one last time. I need to stop looking back at all those happy moments that I used to have, at the crazy me I used to be. Looking back does no good. I should learn how to look forward and stop living in the past.
Just one more time, I promised no matter how much I don't want to.

2009-07-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

"It's okay. Smile yah. But you've to understand. Not everyone can appreciate work just for the efforts put in. They go for appearances. You can start by complimenting others and helping them feel appreciated. When they do, they'll learn to better appreciate simple things too. It always starts from you. Don't worry. To me it was amazing. First drawing up the plan is not an easy work alrdy. Making the model is even harder. Cause have to make sure it's proportionate to what you've drawn on blueprint. Having to cut out so many trees, dipping them in colour, it's not easy. I personally liked the kampong houses best. But how many people can reflect upon the many work processes needed to create that masterpiece? If you look at a painting, how many people can be in awe of the millions of strokes the artist had to make just to draw a tree and all it's leaves? They'll just look at the full picture and say wow that's a nice forest. That's it. So don't take it personally. Mankind is still to self centred to learn to truly appreciate the works of others."

One long message. She always makes me think alot.

At least someone appreciates it.

2009-07-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

STOP GETTING EMOTIONAL.

Till now, it's more than just guilt for telling you.

2009-07-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

After not coming online for two days only, I don't know what to do when I first came online.

I'm such a sucker. Can irdd please be over? :( Most of the groups alrdy presented. So it wasn't really good to present on the last week right? The expectations get higher. Yes and whoever disturb me, I tell you. You are dead.

Sis is a monster. I always wonder why other sisters get along so well but we don't. Not like I don't wan to get along with her. Is she who doesn't wan to get along with me, thinking like everyone owes her something. Fine. So be it.

We can't go on pretending day by day

2009-07-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Everything and anything reminds me that I have not completed my irdd project. I know I spent alot of time on it yet I have not even complete it. But it's not what I want too. I can't help it that it takes such a long time to complete.
You, you and you. Who do I choose? The answer is so clear.
Somehow it's back to me me me. Nothing but me now. Who isn't stress? I'm not allow to be stress. I'm not allow to give questions. I'm suppose to answer all those questions which I have no answer to. I fake a smile. When have I become like that? Don't agitate me when you see me. Because I don't know what will I do.

Nothing last forever. But we choose to deceive ourselves.

2009-07-01T00:22:00.003+08:00

I dislike that feeling.

I hear them talking about finishing it, i hear them laugh see them smile. I'm glad they manage to make it. But can't help but cry inside when I looked at ours. There is still a long way to go. Don't say that I shouldnt be thinking about it and making myself sad because I alrdy feel sad.

Projects always cause quarrels, unhappiness and misunderstandings. It somehow just sucks.

Security project came in today. I must admit I can't go on anymore. Tired is the only word left in my brain. Projects are draining me and squeezing me dry.

累了也没办法。

2009-06-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

就让我一个人静静摇摆

一段爱从不明白到明白

我的眼泪才慢慢流出来

2009-06-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

Tps is freaking 9 storey high. It's like higher den engine school la. Gladys, why aint we born later? :( The school is like so big can!

And hai sing catholic has got 1 teacher who got h1n1.

Went swimming early in the morning with sis, mummy, and aunt. After that headed to market to eat. It's been so long since I ate breakfast there. Because everytime is mummy go da bao back while I was happily sleeping. Throughout the whole day, I was really praying for a message to come. But no it didnt. I have to face it. 2 more weeks to complete. Can I make it?

一句话就好，说你喜欢我。

2009-06-27T01:07:00.001+08:00

累不累呀这问题我问了自己好几回

有时候啊谁孤独得想流泪

一个人啊就算坚强面对多少是与非

付出的呀也都被遗忘作废

2009-06-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

Mummy: Can you don't do project on sunday? I want to go out with you and yaya (sis).
I know mummy needs us now more than anything. It's been so long since I went out with her. Felt so guilty. And whose fault was it?
Ate lots of durian and mangosteen just now. I hope I fall sick.

Projects only make friends fall out with each other. Everything will be fine.
Am I supposed to be happy or sad?

You don't love someone because he or she is perfect.

2009-06-26T01:02:00.001+08:00

The star will not shine again.

2009-06-25T23:36:00.001+08:00

laoda don't emo le.

I shouldn't whine, shouldn't rant, shouldn't cry. Maybe you are right. I shouldn't keep thinking that I can't finish the project. I should look on the bright side. But that was easier said than done. I couldn't see what have we really done. Except all the research, what have we really done? I'm really afraid. I was relieved to hear raymond is coming back one week later again. But when I receive the msg that he is coming back next week, I can't help but panic.

Laoda: Things that don't kill us make us stronger. I think it is Things that don't kill us make us sadder.

No more fb, blog hopping. Just revit, revit and revit. It's my life. I have no idea why because of that 20% we rush until like it's our whole life and our whole life depend on that 20%. Raymond is scary. Will I manage to finish those 7 projects, or will I die first?

Give up and let go.

2009-06-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete.

Delete or don't delete? I'm a noob at it.

I'm the winner of the noob while gladys is the loser of the noobest-est.

Slept at 3plus yesterday and waking up at 6plus this morning. I need sleep! Wasn't really tired until law lesson. Learning all those penal code and sections of law is really boring. Couldn't keep my eyes open la. And I did some retarded things like borrowing stapler from the one stop service centre. After that den realise must bind the law project. How retarded can I be? Design's printing shop has lousy service. That's all I can conclude.

I LEARNT HOW TO PITCH A ROOF DURING SPLN! Can use it for my hut alrdy :))

Happy michel.

However strong we are, we can never fight fate.

2009-06-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

Nobody bothers nobody cares. So why should I even bother to do all these by myself?

If gladys didnt even say law must hand in by tmr 12pm, I'll probably just miss the dateline. Because nobody bothered at all.

I've got 7 subjects. And 6 of it has projects. Damn it. 3 of it is due in the same week. How am I suppose to finish? I'm afraid. Really afraid that one day I really can't take it. I no longer look forward to the start of each new day.

I almost break down. Sorry for throwing the papers away.

2009-06-22T22:37:00.001+08:00

Macha Milk

First day of school was tiring even though there is only fire safety lesson. Did space planning at concourse while waiting for dee. No mood no mood. Jessica and I totally had no mood to do it. But we have to hand in by Wednesday so no choice :(

Went Manpuku to celebrate our third year anniversary. The food there was not bad la. Except for the macha milk. It taste more like HL milk. And I hate milk!

:( Had a wonderful day. 3 years passed so quickly. Soon I'll be old :(

I have a feeling dee falls aslp alrdy. HAHA!

奇迹总爱考验坚持够不够.

2009-06-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

Spent the last day of my so-called holiday with dee. I slept and he played games. After that, we watched Benjamin Buttons. He watched halfway and fell aslp. Haha. Ya that show was very long and draggy. Thanks dee! He made a video for me as anniversary present :) I love you.

2009-06-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

Gladys and jess camping at laoda's house with retarded anqi.

ANQI SAID JAJA! I told you she's dumb.

JIAYOU LAODA/JESS/GLADYS/HUIMIN!

2009-06-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

I wish that I can disappear from this earth immediately.

I don't want to stay here anymore. It's enough alrdy. I can no longer take it any longer.

Revit really sucks. It just can't stop popping the thing out. I'm getting really very irritated by it. I get really frustrated when I see it popping out. Re-installing doesn't help at all. Wanted to walk home today coz I'm really in a bad mood. But not with the lap top and books. It's too heavy for me to walk. I'm getting scare now. I'm afraid we won't finish irdd on time. Revit totally sucks.

3 more days. Yet I'm not in the mood. I'm sorry. :(

心灰意冷谁不会流泪?

2009-06-19T00:20:00.001+08:00

MICHEL IS FEELING DAMN UNHAPPY NOW. BECAUSE SHE FORGOT EVERYTHING THAT SHE LEARNT IN HCDE. :((((

How to draw the freaking wall? Nobody seems to be online today. And people that are online doesn't know how to draw too. Oh man! How? I need to let irdd groupmates see it tmr and I cannot even manage to draw a wall! Why must revit be so hard to use? Somebody who knows and remember how to use revit please come online quickly! I'm praying hard.

Dee is back from soccer. The guys are at his house playing mahjong now. :( I miss him.

2009-06-18T21:45:00.001+08:00

revit sucks :(

Just got back from celebrating eng mgu's birthday with dee and his friends. 16 of us went to bedok 85 to have dinner. After that the guys went to play soccer. Stood there and watch them played. Left around 9 plus. It’s been so long since we went dating. :) I’m so glad that I’m independent and not demanding at all. I can walk to the bus stop even without dee sending me there. And even thought he uses all his strength to wrestle with me and it hurts like shit, I still love him as much. I always ended up crawling back into his arms. Miss him so. He’s probably still playing soccer or in simpang playing lan. Please msg me soon okay. Shall carry on with my revit. I totally forget how to use it alrdy.

Third year anniversary is coming in 4 days. And I haven't even prepare anything. I'm so sorry. It came at the wrong time seriously. Damn sian la. Monday is coming. Can it come slower? I need more time.

星空之下虔诚的许愿

2009-06-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

No longer a bright star.

There is always a reason for everything.
I know that, but I just cannot understand those reasons. It just felt more painful each time mummy calls. With every call, everything seems to be changing. But at least I got an answer I wanted.

I helped mummy pay the bills today. I stood at the AXS machine for like 30 minutes. Because I don’t know how to use it. Everytime someone comes behind me I’ll just cancel the thing and let that person use first. And I finally got it right. Projects are really killing me. i'm drowning.

有谁看穿我的笑脸？

2009-06-16T00:15:00.003+08:00

It takes two hands to clap.
You weren't even there for me.

And I curse the person who steal my shoes. Fuck. He/she stole my two converse shoes and a slipper. His/her hands better break and rot.

2009-06-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

I think this is really nice.

I didn’t think that this day would come. Aunt asked me what I will do about this. I really cannot answer her. I didn’t know what to do, what to think. It felt like dropping from the top right to the bottom. It felt like I lost everything within that one day. I am really really disappointed. No mood to do anything. Why did this have to happen now? What am I suppose to do?

我一夜之间失去全部。

2009-06-15T00:50:00.002+08:00

What should my reactions be? Agree to it or not?

I really don't know. Why is this even happening to me?

Don't ask me what to do, because I also don't know.

Mummy cheer up.

2009-06-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

Siling!

Amanda!

S.A.M.E

crazy woman!

Met up with fav girls on Saturday. Was really happy even thought it was just a small meet up to study. :)

Had this charity walk to stadium this morning. Aunt went to register our names and so we had to go early in the morning. So tired. Went home and sort of chat with my cousin. Was telling her about school stuffs la. And she explained all her experiences to me. She bought a book, girlfriendship. I think it’s really cool after reading the first two chapters. It talks about how best friends can be so comfortable with each other and how to manage all the problems between girlfriends. :)

You really made mummy very disappointed.

2009-06-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

I'M HUNGRY NOW! serve myself right for skipping dinner.

Okay I guess I'm feeling better and so are you.

Don't sad, don't guilty.

but somewhere in that corner there is still guilt.

2009-06-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

The first one I picked. Miss Sunshine.

Didnt eat much dinner just now. I don't feel like eating. Anyway I need to go on diet. Sis and dee kept saying my legs are getting fatter. And I got poke by durians just now while helping aunt. I need to start on space planning again. I'm just being random.

Told dee about it. Okay I know I'm a bitch. I'm feeling guilty again.

I'm sorry. I don't wan to lose a friend just like that. Let's just forget about it okay. I'm sorry.

Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief.

2009-06-11T01:01:00.001+08:00

For good times and bad times,

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for
Well, you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see,

And so by the way I thank you.

2009-06-11T00:35:00.003+08:00

Thanks alot chaishia!
You made me cry knowing that I've done something wrong.
Shutting up is the best choice from now on.

2009-06-10T23:29:00.006+08:00

I did treasure.

It was totally wrong to have tell her. It was me who suck the most. Even if I really heard, it was totally wrong to have said it out. It's partly my fault. I can't face you anymore. It's really tiring to try and hide whatever feelings I have. Why are we all hiding? Think carefully before you speak and do anything. Why are we all doing this? Why has the world bcome such a scary place to be in?

是我做错了吗？

UYS teaches us to be responsible for our actions. Yes I'm feeling guilty now for causing such things to happen. I will just shut up next time if I know this is going to happen. You will read about this but probably won't even know that I'm talking about you. But I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. I made you feel uncomfortable. I'm really sorry. Can all these stop? Stop hiding behind a mask.

握你的手，坚持到最后一秒钟。

2009-06-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

little miss star.

Stars aint always bright and they can't brighten your day bcoz you cannot see them in the day. You will only see them at night. They will probably make you feel happy for that few hours before you sleep.

While walking home today, I had alot of feelings inside me. Luckily the music manage to drown some of the thoughts. Humans are really getting scary. Cousin was right to say never ever confide in someone unless you really trust them. It's amazing how anqi can understand jess so well. I wished for a friend like that. It's really hard to find a friend who really understands you. You don't even need to say anything, but they just can understand how you are feeling.

Star is no longer bright anymore.

Cause I'm lonely,

And I'm tired,

I'm missing you again.

2009-06-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

JESSICA GOH HUI JUN IS THE BEST! love her to the max! :)))

Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*smart minds think alike
мϊcнεІ - [єІєνєи.sϊҳ] - ωεε [ XI•VI ]™ says:
*yay you are the first to call me smart!
*hoohoo
Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*yea
*im the first!!!
мϊcнεІ - [єІєνєи.sϊҳ] - ωεε [ XI•VI ]™ says:
*ya bcoz everyone says i'm dumb!
*lol!

Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*cos they are jealous that you are too smart, so they say you dumb. they just wanna affect you psychologically. so, dont get affected by them cos you got to believe and admit that you are the best & smartest!

2009-06-07T22:05:00.008+08:00

Fuck this world.

I have this feeling that I cannot take it anymore. Uncle is seriously too much alrdy. Since he cant get along with anyone, he has no right to ask ppl do according to what he wants. Just bcoz you need to go overseas doesnt mean that I need to help you work right? I've got my fair share of problems in school alrdy. Loads of projects waiting for me to complete. Don't even know whether I have the time to finish or not.

And YOU! Stop acting like you know everything. I've alrdy told you I have alot of projects to do. So just stop saying that I can plan my time. Blah Blah Blah. It's not about planning my time. It's about how much time I have. I don't think you deserve my respect at all.

And I just realise that up your service thing starts from 9 to 5! Wth. I waste like 2 days of the holiday!

2009-06-05T00:38:00.005+08:00

Library with eileentay!
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STAR!

ANQI!

JESSICA!

Out studying with jess, huimin and anqi on Wednesday. :)

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Finally finish exams alrdy. How I hope exams will never end. Not because I like exams but because I don't want projects to come so soon. Don't want the deadline to come so soon. Totally burnt my two weeks break. This is the first time in my life that I don't feel happy at all after my exams. Not a single bit. I just hope that I won't die before this semester ends. Doing irdd project on Monday. I hope that we can finish on time.

AND MY SLIPPERS GOT STOLEN!

累了又能怎么办？

2009-06-02T22:54:00.001+08:00

SUPER NICE x87634281!

Nothing to say about irdd. Except agreeing with cs and wishing that R vanishes.

Poor Eileen is sick :( 39degree is seriously very hot ah. Accompanied her to the doctor just now. Take care of yourself girl. Hope you are resting well and recovering. See you soon again. :)

I'm seriously having some short term memory. Forgot what I was going to ask jess, forget what I wanted to blog about. And I doubt I'll be able to remember. Is it irdd's fault? I can't think properly. :((

2009-05-31T21:58:00.003+08:00

everyone rocks except me :(

Watched camp rock today and HSM yesterday. Made me felt like going back to the times when we were rehearsing for FDM 3rd year aniversary dance. Miss those times :( Those times when projects weren't killing us. I'm drowning in tests, exams and projects. Seriously I agree with cs! Rebus isnt anything. Last time we thought that rebus was killing us. But now that we have irdd, we will finally understand what is the meaning of killing us. I should really stop looking back. Time to go back to study after watching tv for two hours!

Totally love joe jonas!

2009-05-31T17:23:00.002+08:00

I just had my lunch.

Couldn't concentrate on studying. Someone please help me :( I feel so tired and restless. Manage to study chapter 1 of irdd. But there is still chapter 2! I think I should stop whining and concentrate!

2009-05-30T23:36:00.003+08:00

Love jessica :)

Today manage to see ah gong's funeral de video. Can't help it but feel sad. Saw his coffin. Saw the bottle that contain his ashes. The photographer never do his job la. He didnt video the part when ah gong was burnt. Sian. Video all those pretty girls only. Suck.

Can I have a wish?

I wish that term tests and projects will go away.

2009-05-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

N802!

siap, kiam, hiam!

hiam!

PAPARAZZI!

The whole class wore red today except for a few. Just for one irdd lecture we changed 3 lecture halls. Raymond went through supposedly the tips but I can’t see that it helps. After that he went through the project. Shocked was the only word to describe my feeling. Do so many things within the two weeks break. Can we manage to finish? It wasn’t a holiday at all. :(

Went to hand in the money for the up service thing. Headed to printing shop to print our last few floor plan. And we forget to find the site plan. Stressed out totally. So we stood outside printing shop doing before deciding to go to free access lab. Jess and me chiong like crazy after gladys left for her law presentation. We went to bind and was so happy that we can hand in alrdy. So we were on the way to teacher’s office before we realise that we forget to print some stuffs. So had to walk to business to get it from gladys. Walked back to printing shop to print and bind again. And finally can hand in alrdy! There is still space planning and irdd project left. :(

I need to start studying for term test alrdy. Jia you everyone. Don't be too stress out.

2009-05-28T23:48:00.004+08:00

gladys say I dumb. that face so sad right!

Yesterday I slept very early. Slept at 11.30 that’s the earliest I have slept since second year start. :( So tiring and stress. Today paparazzi spilt. As in grouping for projects. Sometimes we have to sacrifice ourselves. We are nice people. It’s good to change groupings also la. Get to know more about other people. I’m with winnie! Haha. I'm glad that we almost finish flsm project. Crap all the way in library with glad and jess. We're happy people. :)))

2009-05-27T22:26:00.013+08:00

stressed!

I actually survived today. I’m surprised. I slept at 230 and woke up at 630 today. Only 4 hours of sleep. Surprised that I really managed to survive today. Apel was really crazy today. Had 2 hours of lesson. He seriously suck lor. Eat into our lunch time. Totally no time to eat lunch can. I still must tell him that I’ve got presentation den can go. Luckily law presentation starts at 320 so I didn’t need to go so early. Tmr must chiong flsm alrdy. Kiam kiam, siap siap and hiam hiam will manage to finish flsm by tmr! :) They cheer me up. We were crazily taking pictures outside clubroom. And jessica took my laptop adapter! :(

Thanks dee for the mac that you da bao back for us!

No time to study for term test alrdy. Irdd has two topics but there is like freaking 100 plus slides. How to study. I told you he suck.

2009-05-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

I seriously almost burst just now. I think I cannot stand being so tired and stress everyday anymore. There is like test for space planning tmr at 8 and I'm still awake rushing projects. There is presentation for law and apel. Seriously I need someone to kill me.

2009-05-25T23:05:00.001+08:00

Jess love me!

我的心跳好快哦！

Haha! :) I just realise this joke is not my cousin say de la. Is eileentay who told me about it! Haha. Hilarious sia. Kept laughing about it. Gladys very sad la. At 6, raymond still want her to present. Don't sad okay! I paid like 4plus for all the transparencies and I don't need to present. But also relieve la. Although I alrdy plan what to say but I think I sure nervous until don't know how to answer him. There is no security tutorial tmr so lessons start at 2, but that doesnt mean we can sleep more :( Coz we will be doing flsm project.

2009-05-24T13:24:00.001+08:00

evidence of gladys sleeping while we chiong flsm project.

I'M HUNGRY. AND SO IS JESSICA!

gladys cannot feel the hunger coz she is busy sleeping now.

2009-05-24T01:05:00.005+08:00

Amanda

EileenSi ling

I miss fav girls. I miss eating with them, going out with them, studying together. I can never look back, because I will want to go back to those days. I looked at how I used to type and I really feel so digusted leh. Like so super ugly can. Don't even know why I typed like that last time. Haha. Secondary school days were definitely better than now. With lesser stress and more laughters. Why do people stop smiling at one another?

Doing flsm project in school tmr with gladys and jess. We have not even started. And there is irdd. Next week sure will reach me de. Cannot escape from the presentation anymore. :(

2009-05-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

NICE LEH! :)

Next time I wan my car to have that! Like so super nice! Star star leh. :) :) :) :) Went bugis with eileentay to shop for yihao's present. She bought the shirt like super expensive but cannot compare with the $200 bag that he bought for her. Haha. That girl seriously have problem. Way too crazy trying to avoid people. In the end never take pictures.

School days are going faster den I thought. One moment we are rushing out irdd's presentation on monday, and the next moment it's friday alrdy. Why must go so fast? I felt like I haven't been doing anything at all. Security quiz can die alrdy. I only know how to do one question.

Praveena sent warning letter bcoz I never wear shoes! Super bias la. Chai shia say she never wear for twice she also never do anything. Just bcoz her class tell praveena that they love her. :( Bias shit. Teachers are all like that. I dread growing up now. Next time when we go out to work there will also be people like them de. How do I survive?

Happy 35 months dee. One month more to go to 3 years.

希望回到相遇的那一天。

2009-05-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

2 crazy women!

thought of jess :)

I've had enough of this crap seriously.

2009-05-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Prata day! :)

Will there be a guy who will hold your highheels for you and let you wear his slippers while he walks barefooted?

Cui-est day of the day. :( No space planning assignment today coz mdm boey is late for lesson. No apel today. I'm so lucky. Coz I never bring space planning and apel book! There is law project meeting tmr, security quiz and aircon quiz on friday. I'm not prepared for any. Jiayou Michel!

2009-05-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

He cried knowing he'll be gone forever. Knowing that his real sons are all in Singapore and he will never get to see them again. Knowing that he can never come back here again. Are all those laughters at the funeral fake ones or what? Do they even care?

I simply have no mood to do anything after I heard of the stories there.

2009-05-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be.

Aunt and family are coming back must probably tmr. Just one more day of packed food and everything will be normal again. Irdd seriously sucks. I think I will manage to pull through. I just hope everything will come to an end. Stop giving homework, quiz and projects. I can't stop people from talking, but I can stop myself from thinking. So be it.

I won't forget you even if you are so far away. Maybe they will fetch you home one day.

Take care ah gong.

2009-05-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

From now on, tshirts and shorts will do.

Raymond gave us something to do for apel. Mine was to give up a seat to someone in need in public transport. I was thinking bus how to give up seat. Den I also seldom take the train. Today I went to tampines1 foodcourt, just nice when I finish my dinner got one uncle bought his food, but found a table without the chair. So I gave up my chair! :) :) :) Happy michel.

Love is love's reward.

2009-05-15T23:04:00.004+08:00

Had totally fun and madness at eileentay's house! Videoing ourselves and playing with the webcam. She's a noob! Haha. She deleted all of our photos! :( Damn sad leh. The videos are totally unglam. I'm watching it for don't know how many times. And I still can't help but laugh until I cry! Hantu. HAHAHAHA! Eileentay, we should do more of this! But we didnt manage to study ah! :) Love her!

02people! I know you all probably won't be able to see this! But enjoy the camp! Must miss michel okay! :) :) Eat my share of food too! Don't let my money go to waste. And Gladys will be looking at the stars while lying on the floor tonight! Like really la. I want to do that too! :( Miss you people! Have fun ya!

2009-05-14T22:49:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Robin! Winnie lighted the candle for 18 times and Robin blew it for 18 times! :)
Thank you Jess for lending me the laptop battery! It's good to have someone who has the same laptop as me.

EILEENTAY IS NOOB! She never plug in the webcam still wan use. She said she shouted very loud trying to let me hear her when her webcam cannot even work! And when I finally offline den she call to say she know how to use alrdy! NOOOOOB! Meeting her tmr probably to buy havaianas. Should I buy or should I not buy? I don't know leh! How? :(

早知如此何必开始我还是原来的我

2009-05-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

that's my dinner :(

That's the problem when aunt isn't at hm. I miss them. Dinner always turn out to be a disaster. That was supposed to be fried rice. Sis insisted that she wants to put in 5eggs. And it turn out sticky like glue. Mummy still got put seaweed. :( So ended up we ordered pizza.

School still suck. Why do I feel more like a design student as the days go by? I hate drawings. Today finally get to eat lunch with friends but it ended up being a quick lunch only. Coz raymond wong suck. Camp sounded so fun leh. Heard them discussing. Help them pray that hopefully it won't rain that day! :) Waited by myself for cds to start and Dr Ravi came to talk to me. It's so wonderful to have him as a teacher. He said he loves our class the most especially the guys are so special. I don't know what he meant though. His last sentence to me before he left was, "Miss Ang, keep smiling!" :)) I wasted my time, my energy, my strength, my money. I've waste enough. Today was the only day that I can really slow down and rest. But I think it became worse. Have not been having enough sleep these few days. There's no space planning tmr. I hope I won't be the only one going for lecture.

既然那么痛苦又何必呢？

2009-05-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

crazy jess.

:( :( :( :( :(

Michel is seriously the dumb-est person on earth. I made such a careless mistake. It's okay. But i dragged Huimin down with me! :( Feel so guilty today! How how? Sorry Huimin. I feel so bad.

I just realise after like so long only aircon is finally done. Have to redo irdd. Saddest thing in the world. Coz ppl kept laughing at my ferris wheel and how my coconut trees grow. I've law project tmr. There is security quiz coming up. And I totally have no idea what is it about. There is flsm project which we haven't even started! :( Michel is tired and stressed.

2009-05-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

Wore the same colour as jess today. Yellow shirt white shorts. Yellow bottles with pooh. Everything same.

Everyone was so tense in irdd today. I'm stressed like fuck. Cannot explain the feeling in me. There is irdd homework today, aircon teaching notes on tue, and law proj on wed. Cousin and family is flying off to China tmr. Won't be back until next monday. Stressed. I will face all of these myself.

2009-05-11T10:05:00.000+08:00

Ah gong passed away this morning. Cousin's family is flying over to China tmr. Although he isn't my real ah gong but still he took care of me when I was young. To think that I couldn't even get to see him. To think that when he went back to China they never even help him make his passport. To think that when he was really ill and wished to cm back to Singapore he couldn't even cm back because he doesn't even have a passport.

RIP ah gong.

2009-05-10T10:49:00.000+08:00

To love is to find pleasure in the happiness of the person you love.

2009-05-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

Mine is the biggest star!

Did that for space planning today. Jess did something stupid today again. She tried boxing her reflection. And she thought that there wasn't anyone in the next classroom. I bet everyone saw that lor. She's the silliest person I've ever met. IRDD and aircon is killing me :(

Meeting up with eileentay tmr! She found my umbrella!

One day I'll sit on the rooftop and look at the stars. ★

2009-05-07T14:29:00.000+08:00

Seriously, wednesday is the most tiring day of the week. There are more projects coming in la. I'm too tired to do anything. Freaking law teacher sucks la. No sticker still must go down take den can continue lesson. Lesson ended after half an hour. Did space planning at concourse with yuwei they all. After they went for cds, went library with dating partner. To her 3 X 3= 12! LOL. Finally took pictures with classmates after so long. :)

累到不知道说什么好。

Happy birthday Yu shimin!

2009-05-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

I've got 4 stickers!

There's temperature taking in school today! Engine high tech la! Use those scan faces de machines. I have to walk out den come in again coz the door that I came in from didn't have the sticker. And apparently you must have the sticker den can go class. Lucky I got the sticker, if not also cannot go into library. I just realised today that Sujatha's cds also law! Haha! Den her tutorial class same as Gladys!

I did something damn stupid today! Winnie kept laughing at me :( Damn sad leh! During aircon lesson, I happily took out my book and flip to chapter 6 coz I'm supposed to come out with my own teaching notes. Den I happily read and highlight the key points. I saw the title was Project Time Management. So I just thought that mayb aircon also need proj management. After reading on I saw some words like predecessor activity. And I flipped to the cover page only to realise the book is Project Management instead of Aircon!! Winnie couldn't stop laughing! :( :( Sad liao lor. Felt so retarded! But I still think it's better den Jess lor. She went to type wahjong.com instead of viwawa.com! Haha!

I want nobody, nobody but you!

2009-05-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

如果不爱为何难过？

如果不爱为何吃醋？

如果不爱为何担心？

如果不爱为何要吵架？

如果不爱为何留下来？

如果不爱为何心会痛？

种种的如果证明我还爱。

Went to work on Labour Day. Such a great thing to do. I should have spend the day doing my own stuff de right. Sucker! Injured myself during work. Didn't have dinner too. Uncle bought us a curry puff each and thats all. No time to even go buy dinner. Ice said something really stupid today. Your waer bottle very cute, I feel like drinking your water! Damn dumb! :( Hungry michel! I'm tired and hungry!

2009-05-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

I felt like a loser who doesnt know how to fight for her own rights.

I felt like I have wasted my life.

I simply just hate school now.

I have no idea why I have become like that. I don't like my life. Totally did nothing today except for slping and staring at the computer screen. That's crap. I really thought it will be different in year 2. I really thought/hope it will be. But it's the same nothing has change. And it will never change.

我好想把我的爱全部交托给你, 一生一世都不分离

你让我变得好孤寂, 你让我痛得没力气

2009-04-30T13:53:00.000+08:00

forever crazy!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY EILEEN TAY!
I just realise that when I wished you Happy Birthday, I said that you were the first among 4 of us to be 18! Haha! I forgot about si ling! Sorry! You are finally legal! Just hope that you had a wonderful day with your jc friends and family. Didnt manage to meet you coz you are busy finding a spare phone and just simply too lazy to cm find us! Haha. Go change that lousy phone of yours okay! Too bad you have to be late for the first time during your jc life! Too bad you are having yor chem test tmr. Too bad you have to run 2.4 tmr! But the best thing is he's coming back tmr! Have fun tmr with your horse while I bored myself to death! LOVE YOU LOTS!

2009-04-29T14:49:00.000+08:00

说了又有什么用？一个人难过好过两个人伤心。

2009-04-27T08:26:00.000+08:00

First week of school and everyone is so cui. Two days of 8am lessons seriously suck. It's been so long since I dragged myself up at 6plus every morning. I simply just hate all the modules for this semester. Law was fun but who knows. That was only the first lesson. And there are only 4 girls in the class. I need to get contacts and the lotion by today! If not I can just wear specs to school. Sian. All my money is gone buying all those stuffs. Books and contacts.

Another LCD came today. My house now has 2 lcds and 2 tvs. Apparently, another one is coming. I have no idea why is there so many tvs in my house. Mummy bought the 40inch one and they give the 26inch one to us for free. The third tv I have no idea where is it from. I'm going to have a tv in my own room! Yay-ness!

尽情地爱，假装没有受伤过。

2009-04-25T13:30:00.000+08:00

The best I can ever have! (:

It felt like I have reach my maximum limits. Is it time for me to decide on my own about what I want? To make my own decisions instead of bothering about how other people think. Doing things the way people like but not me. Can I decide on my own what I really want to do? I feel like I'm anti-social. Life seriously sucks. I don't want just a normal life.

Slack at eileentay's house after school. I couldn't believe something like that happened. If it was me, I can never stand up by myself after what has happened. It was really very brave of her. Life isn't fair at all. Beloved people around us taken away is really unfair.

ENGINE won the Guinness World Record for the Human Wheelbarrow! Damn super cool! I want to join alot of events! I don't want to lead a simple normal life ):

只要能天天看到你就足够了。

2009-04-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

It's the first day of school. School suddenly seems so tiring. It's worse then working. I felt so left out. What to do? Lao da also different class from us for most of the subjects. Sian. It doesn't feel the same anymore lor. Was supposed to meet at 9am and nobody was there yet. Had to choose cds. I had a hard time trying to choose one la. I wanted basic nutrition but like nobody chose that. In the end I put law of singapore. The moment huimin stepped into the lecture hall she sai," michel you got law leh!" Sian! That's the first day of school.

2009-04-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

When you are angry, I'm more afraid. Afraid to talk to you, afraid to face you.

Tmr is the start of year2. A brand new year. Don't know why I have this weird feeling in me. It's hard to describe. I just pray that everything will be alright. Aunt dreamt that second aunt is leaving us on tuesday. Just like how i dreamt of ah ma leaving us. It's really scary coz 2nd aunt just had an operation and had stroke after the operation. The feeling of losing her is really scary. 2nd aunt managed to wake up from her sleep and talk to us for awhile today. But the dream just seemed to haunt everyone. We are just praying that she will be fine. Get well soon.

吃苦就当作吃补

2009-04-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

Super bad mood today la. Very moody. Simply just threw my phone back into the cupboard. Refuse to talk to anyone for awhile. I'm so weird. What's happening I'm not sure. It seems like it's getting worse. I don't understand anymore. Why? Is it really so hard to be happy? Is it really so hard? Or are we demanding too much from others?

心会痛也是因为太在乎你。

2009-04-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

如果我知道会是这样那我宁愿不要见。

我不是耍脾气，更不是什么大小姐。我真的真的很累了。我已经受不了了。走了那么久是不是该休息了呢？每一次见都会这样我真的不想再见了。我是真的累了。好想停下来慢慢的想。因为你根本不在乎。

如果不爱为何吃醋？

2009-04-02T14:23:00.000+08:00

This few days really on the verge of crying. Talk to ice and may about parents and stuff. About how mummy always treats me. I know I'm the older one and is supposed to be more mature but still I also have feelings right. It's just simply too unfair. But after hearing them talk about their own problems with their boyfs, somehow it felt like my problems are really really very small. If such small things can make me so tired, how am I going to survive when I grow up? The things that we quarrel over are really minor. I don't even know why we quarrel. I don't wan to grow up anymore. It felt like I can't trust anyone.

Just came home. Sian. Super tired can. Tmr still must go work. Damn boring ah! Got scolded by uncle. Sucker! Seriously can't stand him anymore! Rawr. Kept quiet for so many days den suddenly scold. Bet he already ren very long liao.

I really wan to go class chalet lor. But no choice have to work! Sian leh. If only the chalet isnt at Sentosa. Maybe still can go lor. Coz can save on travel time.

Siling, Jia you! We will always be there for you! Love you as always. Be strong!

2009-03-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

sis!

shiying

uncle & aunty!

yanling came in too!

shijie joined in!

jie/shiying/me/sis

beloved cousin! had to force her to take pictures!

mummy and her godson!

Birthday boy!

Ytd was Eugene’s birthday! Headed down to his hse after work.

Shiying works at suntec so we went back together. Long time never see her lor.

Haha. Had fun there!
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了

2009-03-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

Finally went for band today. It’s the last practice before the carnival next week. Haha. I hope it will be a fun day! I missed those days when we are preparing for performance. Heard the main band played their songs fro syf. They are the 89th band playing. I wan to watch them leh! It’s on 3rd april! After band, headed to dee’s hse. And then to his family’s chalet. Had to fetch aunt and family from airport coz they are back from china. They went to visit ah gong. Poor ah gong! Heard that the hospital that he stayed was like crap. No wheelchair, no nurses, no food. Go xray also must carry the patient yourself, and change their clothes yourself. What a lousy hospital. Too bad ah gong couldn’t stand, if not can cm back to singapore. I hope that he get well soon!

2009-03-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

Went for work today. Ice off! So good la. She went to jb to shop. Uncle asked me to go up open shop first. Den someone came in to do eyebrow piercing. I took the stud to tattoo shop coz we provide the stud, they do the piercing. Damn irritating la. David dropped the ball and we don’t have an extra one coz it’s coloured one. In the end, 5 people were looking for that freaking small ball. But cannot find. :(

2009-03-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

1000 days isn't long neither is it short.

After all this while, have we forgotten the difficult times we went through and all the happy moments we shared? How did we manage to hold on tight after all these time? How did we come this far? It's not luck that brought us here. It's we ourselves who decided to walk together down this road, hand in hand.

I'm sorry for falling sick on this special day. We will celebrate any day right?

I love you.

2009-03-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

I'm still stuck with the orange ipod! I went all the way to wheelock place and waited for damn long. They just don't wan to let me change. I want to hot pink one! Like damn nice la. Should have bought at the shop coz it fair isn't any cheaper. Den at the shop still can choose colour.

You will experience happiness when you have experienced sadness.

1 more day.

2009-03-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

Have you tried hard enough? Yes you have tried hard, but have you reached your limit alrdy? Do you quit easily and then excuse yourself by saying it’s useless? It’s about the decisions you have to make in life. Why let others decide how you should live your life? When will you be strong enough to stand up for yourself? Let people know that you are entitled to have your own point of view. One day you will definitely face a big issue. Then what?

Why are people asking me no to be selfish and yet they asked me not to bother about how people think and do things the way I want.
I need to go Wheellock place to change my ipod! Got scratches on it la. Go there ask can change the colour not. My sis and I bought the same colour coz only left orange.

想念是会呼吸的痛。

2009-03-15T14:10:00.000+08:00

Didn’t went for band today again bcoz nobody wants to go. I cant possibly go by myself right. Boring! Did nth at dee’s hse. Went to uncle’s hse to fetch mum in the evening and headed back hm. That’s all for today.

Tell me why I should stay?

习惯就好了

2009-03-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

Just got back from tm. Went to watch Coming soon with dee and his friends.

Actually is celeb jing heng’s birthday, but dee waited for me to finish work so we didn’t manage to eat with them. In the end both of us ate at food court den off to watch movie. Wasn’t really scary, but abit disgusting. A tired day!

2009-03-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

Just bcoz he fucking give me cpf every month so I have to do whatever he says?

I don’t even have the right to reject? Just bcoz of that $170? Why is it always liddat?

I simply hate working there and working there and it just means that I can’t get to meet dee. Everything is gone.

2009-03-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

Dad drop my laptop while vacuuming!

My heart almost drop out. I hope that nth will go wrong! I don't wan my laptop to spoil. :(

Such a boring day. Raining whole day.

I miss you.

17 more days!

2009-03-01T12:25:00.000+08:00

amanda!

Liew Chai Shia!

Eileen, Amanda

Went for band today. Cs and me were the earliest to reach la. Den Jonathan came to open the door. Sat there and for quite long only got clarinet section ppl! Haha! Rachel and Jianhui said the right thing! Cs will never change de! still so lame. Haha. I really forgot how to read the notes and everything alrdy. Until I started to play the songs. I need to go run alrdy, we all don't have enough breathe! Haha! Was happy to be at band la!

After that headed to downtown to look and Eileen Tay, Amanda Aw and wait for dee. I miss them so super much! Had lunch with dee and met them to play arcade! After that went back dee's house to sleep. Tower Bloxx is nice! Make me feel like creating facebook too!

2009-02-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

crazy about stars! ★

Today is my first day of holidays and dee's last paper! Intht was screwed. I just hope that at least I can get a D! Headed to tm after his paper to catch Slumdog Millionaire. It's a nice movie, really. You all should watch it. Went back after that. I need a job. I don't wan to work at bugis unless I really can't find a job :( So sad.

There is band tmr! I miss band so much!

2009-02-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

chai shia's letter!

Everything is fine again. I hope it will stay like that. And I’m such a nice friend. Eileen tay (aunty agony) asked me to help her buy bubble tea and send it to her house. And I did that okay! I’m such a nice person. She owes me a meal! I miss my fav girls! Hope to see them soon.

I didn’t really study much today. Stayed in school library with chai shia and dee. Talked more den study! I need to study hard! I don’t want 02 to spill. Felt like I’m going back to sec2. That was the day when they asked all the higher mother tongue people to cm together and form another class. They spilt us all and form 2e2. The feeling is the same. But that time was when all of us were still very innocent. I don’t want to go through the same thing again. I will probably get to know more friends but I really hate the feeling of splitting.
All of little something, these are our memories.

2009-02-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

dee dedicated song for me!

dinner at soup restaurant!

MARINA BARRAGE!!

buying lunch!

HAPPY V. DAY!

Got this really sad feeling going through me although it doesn't happen to me. Just can't help it la. This really weird feeling that cause me to think a lot. It doesn’t really matter how long a relationship maybe. Even if the two people are still in love. It can be over just because of a really small thing that happens. It seems so scary somehow. I HAVE A LOT MORE TO LEARN IN A RELATIONSHIP.
Dearest, you know we will be here for you if you need us. Just call us if you need us. No matter what happens, take good care of yourself okay. Exams are coming so don’t fall sick. Drink lots of water because you already lose your voice. Take really good care of yourself. Be strong. We always love you girl!

2009-02-14T11:55:00.000+08:00

Just 6 words.
I hate being the stronger one.

I have to pay for what I did.

2009-02-13T11:52:00.000+08:00

A fucking bicycle just bang into me from behind when I was walking hm! There is like so many spaces for him to cycle la. Not a good day.

其实爱对了人情人节每天都过

2009-02-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

❤

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部

我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

Is it the world or me?

2009-01-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

Friday

mummy & daddy!

dad & me!

yiling/jiaying!

uncle cum boss!

ah gong's grandchildren! except yiling and groom!

uncle!

ah gong!

andy and benny.

xin kai!

cousin and his wife.

sixian/me/sis

aunt!

krystle!

I hate Lily Lim and Benjamin Wong.
Don't you realise you asked me to put down my paper twice? It's my habit to take up the paper and look la. Not as if I can talk to her liddat. And I lent her the calculator simply bcoz I tot she don’t have. Not like I can type the answers there right. You can go on and say I got a good heart blah blah blah. I don’t even bother to answer you. Went for cousin’s wedding dinner at night at Conrad. Where I had my prom night. He’s the first grandchild of ah gong’s to get married. Cindy is getting married on 4 dec. The first granddaughter to get married! Aunt suddenly asked me when will I get married. Where got so fast la!

Sunday: Sentosa!

dee!

Went Sentosa ytd with deee! So super fun! I wan to go again soon!

Digging the sands, soaking in the water, lying on the mat! yay! Fun but tired!

2009-01-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

it did light up! :)

Fuck-ed up world.

Was damn cui today. Long day. Hcde is killing me soon. Drawing chairs and stools. Slept during esfac lec. Everyone was like aslp la. Felt so much better after the nap. Esfac lab we did all those wires stuff. And we are not the last group can! We did so much faster den last week! Haha. After that had a meeting for tmr's presentation. Mummy bought 5 stockings can! And I'm not wearing skirt. Isabella say must wear stocking inside the pants. Gosh! Reach hm around 8plus. Cui!
It's easy to push the blame to other people,

and not realise your own mistake.

2009-01-15T03:39:00.000+08:00

i drew on huimin's hand!

crazy huimin wants lots of stars.

nice right!

JAE was fun and tired. slack around most of the time. we are good students okay. we still went back for esfac tut even though we had loa for the whole day. was damn cui when i reach hm. still have to do the jap script all by myself. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEW SILING! :)

be happy with what God gave us.

nobody is perfect.

2009-01-13T17:23:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep. great.

Sometimes, i felt like i don't have the strength to carry on anymore.

2009-01-12T15:53:00.000+08:00

bought this dress for cousin's wedding dinner.
daddy broke this while eating. :O

went shopping at far east with cousin/sis/parents. walked so much yet i couldnt find anything i like. :( i need to buy shoes! saw a hot pink heels. cousin was like keep asking me to buy. it's so super high. i scare wear until leg pain. the hot pink is really nice la! going shopping again next week. sis bought 2dresses and a pair of heels. :( me and cousin each bought a dress! thanks mummy!

it's not supposed to hurt this way.

2009-01-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

mummy&daddy

mummy's fav cake.

cousin!

I'M FREAKING LATE FOR SCH TODAY! :( warning letter

i'm really sick and tired of all these nonsense. i hate waiting and waiting. i felt like it is a waste of time. if you wan my respect why can't i get my respect too? i can jolly well just walk away and take bus to school myself. i simply just hate going to opp blk 230 to take bus go sch. it's a waste of time. i could have just slp longer and walk to sch. but i didnt okay. i don't wan to talk anymore.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

想睡就睡想闹就闹